The number one has been stuck in my head all week.
To be honest, I thought this entire post was going to be about patience.
I guess I should rewind to the previous week.
It was a Wednesday night and I thought I would be responsible and turn off New Girl and put my phone down for the night because ya know supposedly removing electronics helps you fall asleep faster.
My mind obviously thought that was a pretty funny joke because I laid awake staring at my ceiling in the dark alone with my thoughts because that’s always a good time am I right?!
I started thinking about how my birthday was coming up and how I was going to be 24 years young.
Then I thought of all the ways I had changed and grew over the past year.
I was kind of shocked just how fast a year had flown.
Isn’t that kind of the way life is though?
You sit there and hope, wish, dream, and pray for all these things that you think will make your life better.
The things that you think will make you complete.
But if you’re not careful, you’ll watch your life quickly pass you by.
You get so focused on the future that you forget it’s one day at a time.
One day turns into one week and one week turns into one month and one month turns into one year.
That’s where I’m at.
I’ve always considered myself to be a pretty patient person.
But laying in my bed that night, I realized I actually don’t have much patience at all.
I want my prayers to be answered and I want it now.
I want my goals to be achieved and I want it now.
I want my dreams to come true and I want it now.
And it’s not just the big things, it’s the little things too.
I can’t even attempt to do my hair or makeup without getting frustrated that it’s taking too long or doesn’t look right, yet I won’t even put in the time and effort to learn how to actually do these things.
If I start a new workout plan I want to see results immediately.
If I make a new friend I want us to be super close really fast.
I always rush things before the timing is right.
I get bored easily because I’m like, “okay I already checked that off the list what’s next? I’m ready for the next step, come on!”
And here’s where I really get vulnerable.
I feel like I should be embarrassed or feel silly, but I don’t because this is something I’m passionate about.
I started this blog because I thought this would be the easiest way to help make a positive difference in the world.
And maybe you’ll roll your eyes at this next statement because you probably know 1,000 other people who say this but, I love people.
I really do.
I care so deeply about people.
I know what it feels like to be loved.
I know what it feels like to feel lonely.
I know what it feels like to be joyful.
I know what it feels like to have anxiety.
Just like if you’re still reading this, I know that you know what it feels like to feel every emotion under the moon.
Because we’re human.
And there’s times when I’m around someone and my first instinct is to not like them.
I mean they just really rub me the wrong way.
And we justify if our heads why all of this is okay.
“They hurt me. They dress inappropriately. They sleep around. They’re so hateful. They don’t like me.”
The limit does not exist.
But when I find myself having these thoughts I have to remind myself that these same people, ya know the ones your hating on so badly, they’re made in the same image as me and you.
And you know it’s not really fair to hate on people because you haven’t ever had to walk in their shoes.
And that’s why I love people.
We’re beautifully broken, but all made from the same clay.
And I Want People To read this blog and feel loved and be love.
I want to make a difference and I want to make it now.
I want to touch thousands of people and I want to go to foreign lands to meet as many people as I can to tell them about Jesus and his love.
I want to do all these things and I want to do them now.
So I get discouraged.
I get discouraged when I don’t have thousands of readers already.
I get discouraged when I feel like why even try if I’m only reaching less than 100 people a week.
Why even try if it seems like no ones really paying attention and I don’t feel like I’m getting anywhere.
And then it hit me.
“Even if you only reach one.”
This is my new mindset.
Even if I only reach one person, even if I only help one person, even if I only change one person’s life, and even if I only lead one person to Jesus then all that struggle will be more than worth it.
So I encourage you to have this same mindset.
Even if you’re kind to every person you meet and it only affects one person, it’ll be worth it.
Even if you write hundreds of songs and it only changes one person’s life, it’ll be worth it.
Even if you talk to thousands of people and you only save one person, it’ll be worth it.
So please don’t get discouraged because with a “Just One” mentality that one turns into another one and that one turns into a hundred more.
Now go out and get one more.